Today, I was going to write about time management. The one thing that everybody says to me without fail when they either a. hear that I write a blog as well as do my day job, or b. hear that I work full time as well as write a blog, is ‘how do you find the time?’ The truth is I don’t. I just use literally every second of time that I have. Sometimes it works but balancing it all is an art form. An art that sometimes I feel like I have mastered and other times I feel like I fail at day after day after day.
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Right now, for no particular reason I feel like that. The whole ‘stop the world, I want to get off‘ thing? That’s me right now. I keep fantasising about having 2 weeks of doing nothing. I’ve even started to think fleetingly about emigrating and starting again. I always know things are bad when I feel like that. When I start day dreaming about what else I could do with my life. I realise that probably sounds either crazy or slightly depressing and I promise I’m not either, but do you ever wonder what might have been? Although I’ve had a ton of amazing experiences, committing to my career as soon as my feet touched down in uni (or sooner if you count opting not to take a gap year,) buying a house and getting married all made for a life that didn’t really lend itself to spontaneity. All were choices I made and things I wanted at the time, but whenever I’m feeling hemmed in my thoughts turn to escaping, emigrating, starting again.
Of course, that’s a serious case of the grass is always greener syndrome. No matter where you go, your bills and paperwork are bound to follow you. The worst thing about feeling snowed under (I find) is that no sooner than you have cleared the decks and committed to some down time, have those niggling tasks and life admin started to accumulate again. It feels like being a Guinea Pig on a wheel.
Maybe it’s the terrible summer we have had. Maybe it’s the extra work I’m doing right now. Maybe it’s written in the stars. All I seem to be able to do is fantasise about how to sort it all out and regain some balance so I thought I would make a (realistic) list of things I’d rather be doing. Kind of the antidote to burn out.
- Flicking through the September issues in a long hot bath.
- Baking a cake that has so many layers and fillings that it requires taking over the entire kitchen for a whole day and thinking of nothing but sugar.
- Watching a black and white movie on a grey afternoon with the rain falling on the windows.
- Reading in a chair instead of my bed, when I’m able to keep my eyes open for more than 10 minutes.
- Taking a day trip to the seaside, feeling the wind in my hair and the sun on my face and paddling.
- Finding time for a yoga class and getting some mental balance.